I will then watch her sleep for 30 minutes instead of getting my homework and chores done. I can't help it. I just stare at her little features and try to memorize them before they change again. I listen to her breath and smell her hair. I kiss and stroke her forehead. I put her little feet in my hands and compare the size and think that eventually, one day, her feet could be bigger than mine. I think "wow, she's mine. How did that happen?" On one hand I am missing the perfect opportunity to finish the things I have been unable to with a clingy little girl at my feet but on the other hand I just can't leave. There will be a time when I won't be able to do this anymore and I can't bear it. Why do I do this to myself?